” B I S H O P “

It is weird to be blogging again, but I am just in an expressive mood. God is opening so many doors that I have kept shut all my life. Whether it be confronting struggles or tearing down these wall I have, I believe that as painful as they might be, there is good to be found.

I have often been called a “defeatist” by one of my friends, but she is so right in many ways that I overlook the truth in that statement time and time again. I need to be thankful for God’s blessings and turn more and more to him at my times of despair and negative outlook at things.

Thanks God for everything, including my struggles as they will lead to an awesome testimony some day.

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Tonight was such an uncomfortable night. I revealed a current struggle and deep dark secret in my life with a very close friend. It was, in fact, in our conversation that brought up this blog and made me decide to post in it again.

I am not saint in life and have my share of secrets. It was a relief to finally let someone know about my secrets so that I can make progress in determining in what God’s plan is for my life. The only difficult thing is that I may have to walk away from some things I really do value in life so that I can focus on problems at hand and not become influenced with personal views and society views. My prayer tonight is that this moment in life I can find peace with myself and better understand as to who I am as a person.

I often believe that I can figure things out on my own, but having someone who knows your deepest darkness also helps hold yourself accountable for discovering the best options and directions in life. I hope and pray that everyone knows that God loves us all for who we are and that NOTHING can cover up that precious gift of life that was nailed to a Cross.

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