Job Hiatus…
As my employer, Adams 12 Five Star Schools, begins to battle with the need to cut almost $24 million from next year’s budget, I find myself at an uncomfortable crossroads. The fear of loosing one’s job is never a soothing thought, but yet, everyone must face this fear.
As I began to pray about my current job situation this evening, I caught myself in what I would call a selfish prayer. I began by praying for a positive outcome of my job and that it would stay secure. After realizing the amount of “me’s and I’s” in my prayer, I began to look at how truly blessed I am with what gifts God has given me. Yes, a car payment and mortgage is important, but who am I to put the awesome gifts that God has provided behind Worldly Posessions?
God has given me an AMAZING job with some truly amazing co-workers and one outstanding boss. I have gained some valuable job experience and have just had a lot of fun with my job.
However, if my job is terminated, I can leave knowing that God will provide. He always does. It was his sure power that got me the job in the first place. I am confident in the fact that there is always light at the end of the tunnel and that I have God to depend on no matter what the outcome.
Sin Justified?
So it has been quite awhile, but I am really at a point in my life in which I just need to write this down for myself. But anyway…
What is a person to do in life when they struggle with deep, dark “sin” in which they fell that they cannot confide with Pastors, Church Members, friends or family? It is with these struggles, that I have become overwhelm with a burning sense of confusion and chaos. I do no know who to turn to other than God with this struggle because I fear for the sake of the amazing friendships I am a part of.
I understand that God’s word is the way, the truth, and the light, but at times it is difficult to know whether or not is is God’s Word or an interpretation of the philosophy of a church. I am at a loss of ideas, but yet my love and fire for our God is strong that I still continue to make every effort to justify my actions.
However, I am beginning to lose my faith in myself and fell the strong pull of society’s views, which, at times, make more sense. I know that sin and guilt is painful and that it is a destructive power to one’s spirit and mind. But who gives anyone the authority to judge the worth of a sin?
I like to use the analogy of a $5 bill and a $1 bill. If you were to ask someone to tell the difference of the bills, they would respond that the $5 bill is worth more. I believe that humans try to comprehend the unexplained by creating values and standards. However, if that $5 bill and $1 bill were to be sin, God would view them as the same. Money is all it is. Not worth more or less, but just money.
Why is it that this is not the case for our Christian views in which we still classify sin and rate it? We find it easier to point out the sin of others and tell them this is wrong, yet we cannot stop living a sinful life ourselves. I hope someday I can trust someone to help me understand why on Earth I cannot fight this sin, so that I can strive to be more like the only perfect person on this Earth: Jesus Christ.
Why I should not cook…
Simply put, I should not cook. Earlier this week I purchase the delectable Costco Chicken Alfredo “take-n-bake” meal. The directions clearly stated that the internal temperature must be 160 degrees. Using my handy dandy instant read thermometer, I decided to check the temperature of the meal often. At one point, I was distracted by a phone call. At this time, my meal was still not up to fully cooked temperature so I left it in the oven to cook some more. Upon recheck, I was unable to locate my trusty thermometer until I opened the oven door. I soon discovered that this thing was baking along with my meal. I quickly removed the thermometer and placed it in a plastic cup while I attended to my meal. In seconds, a sound that resembled gunfire broke out as the battery of this thermometer exploded in the kitchen. Below is what happens with a not-so-oven-safe device is cooked at 450 degrees.
